[It isn't just that one thing, not really, though for most that would have been enough. It was everything that came after it as well, how long it had taken him to even begin to regain the kind of confidence he had walked into that building with that day.
He stills visibly when Erenville places his hand between his ears like that, addressing him in such a familiar way that is both unexpected and entirely warming. His fingers fidget with his half empty cup for a moment as he slowly exhales a steadying breath.]
I know. It never was, and Livia deserved worse than the quick death she got. [Deep breath. In, out.] But it wouldn't have brought any of them back, and she's gone now too, so...
[E'kayan sighs, gently nudging his head up against the hand on top of it.]
I shouldn't have lost it like that... but I couldn't stand that thought that I'd find you--... that there wouldn't be anything I could do for you either.
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Date: 2023-05-10 11:27 pm (UTC)He stills visibly when Erenville places his hand between his ears like that, addressing him in such a familiar way that is both unexpected and entirely warming. His fingers fidget with his half empty cup for a moment as he slowly exhales a steadying breath.]
I know. It never was, and Livia deserved worse than the quick death she got. [Deep breath. In, out.] But it wouldn't have brought any of them back, and she's gone now too, so...
[E'kayan sighs, gently nudging his head up against the hand on top of it.]
I shouldn't have lost it like that... but I couldn't stand that thought that I'd find you--... that there wouldn't be anything I could do for you either.